This is my first post on this site. 2 weeks ago tomorrow I lost my precious Mia to some kind of sudden illness. She was only 3.5 years old, and she was the light of my life. I don't know exactly what happened, she suddenly became very lethargic and was acting very sluggish. Without going into all the details, she passed away within 2 days of showing any symptoms. I had brought her to the vet, and they thought it was just an infection, but when I brought her back the next day she died within hours. Apparently her lungs filled up with water and she died. The vet was not able to make any official cause of death - she said it could have been an allergic reaction to something, possibly if something obstructed her airway the day she got sick, or a few other ideas, none of which I saw any previous signs of.
Mia was the first dog I ever had, and she came into my life when I was going through a hard time and needed some comfort. I truly loved her like a child. She was the most wonderful, precious thing to me, and I am beyond devastated now that she is gone. I feel like my entire world has crashed in on me. For the first 2 days after she died I cried and hardly moved. Since then, I tend to be ok during the day, but then the grief overtakes me at night. Sometimes it's just pain, and I can't cry. If I cry I can at least get some relief, but it's the worst when I can't.
I am trying to remember all of my happy times with her, but I keep dwelling on the final days and all of my regrets. Words can't describe how much I loved my little pug. I feel so angry, shocked and just totally gutted that my baby was taken away from me when she was so young. It is killing me that she was suffering, and I didn't realize how bad it was until the end.
I do have another pug, Polly, who I love to pieces as well. I am soooo grateful to have her, i don't know what I would do without her right now. I love Polly, but Mia was my 'soul-pug', I don't know how else to describe it.
thanks for listening, Nicole