This is my first post on this site. 2 weeks ago tomorrow I lost my precious Mia to some kind of sudden illness. She was only 3.5 years old, and she was the light of my life. I don't know exactly what happened, she suddenly became very lethargic and was acting very sluggish. Without going into all the details, she passed away within 2 days of showing any symptoms. I had brought her to the vet, and they thought it was just an infection, but when I brought her back the next day she died within hours. Apparently her lungs filled up with water and she died. The vet was not able to make any official cause of death - she said it could have been an allergic reaction to something, possibly if something obstructed her airway the day she got sick, or a few other ideas, none of which I saw any previous signs of.
Mia was the first dog I ever had, and she came into my life when I was going through a hard time and needed some comfort. I truly loved her like a child. She was the most wonderful, precious thing to me, and I am beyond devastated now that she is gone. I feel like my entire world has crashed in on me. For the first 2 days after she died I cried and hardly moved. Since then, I tend to be ok during the day, but then the grief overtakes me at night. Sometimes it's just pain, and I can't cry. If I cry I can at least get some relief, but it's the worst when I can't.
I am trying to remember all of my happy times with her, but I keep dwelling on the final days and all of my regrets. Words can't describe how much I loved my little pug. I feel so angry, shocked and just totally gutted that my baby was taken away from me when she was so young. It is killing me that she was suffering, and I didn't realize how bad it was until the end.
I do have another pug, Polly, who I love to pieces as well. I am soooo grateful to have her, i don't know what I would do without her right now. I love Polly, but Mia was my 'soul-pug', I don't know how else to describe it.
thanks for listening, Nicole
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KatB (almost 2 years ago)
I understand to well what you are feeling right now. I lost my Sulynn in March, and my pain and sadness is still coming in on me when I least expect it. The nights as you said are hard. The tears fall on my pillow like rain. My heart is truely broken. I miss her so much. I have had many dogs in my life that have passed on. I loved them so dearly, but Sulynn has hit me the hardest of all. Don't feel I'll ever stop missing her. Her illness was really unknown as well. She was here with me fine and dandy, and the next she was sick and I lost her. She's just gone. I think the not knowing what caused it is what bothers me. In my mind I keep thinking it could have been something really simple to fix and the Vets just didn't find it. That doesn't matter now. I am sending prayers to you. I hope in the days and weeks, and months to come, your pain will ease. I know where my Sulynn is, and I know I will be with her again. It's just not time. Please know that I feel for your loss. I am so sorry you are goin through this. You will see Mia again. I am so sorry Nicole. We are all here for you.
Kat_and_Rex (almost 2 years ago)
I'm sorry to read of your loss Nicole, I too lost my Holi, my best friend last October, I can still cry (I cry now recallling her and knowing the pain and loss you are feeling) when I see her pictures around the house and I remember what a wonderful dog, and loyal friend she was. She will always be missed and part of our family as Mia will be with yours. Thinking of you at this sad time.
JanandSass (almost 2 years ago)
These little ones, they give us unconditional love. That is why it is so hard to take when they pass on. It is like little pices of diviine love they give us. Heartfelt sympathies going out to you in your sorow. As you can see from the other posts from our friends on here, we know exactly how you are feeling, but we can't make the hurt and the sorrow go away. Mia will always be part of the sweet memories of your life.
three_cute (almost 2 years ago)
I am so sorry to hear about Mia. I know there are no words to make you feel better, or to miss her any less. Remember all the good times you have had with her, and remember she put all that love in your heart so you will pass it on to another. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
Rita (almost 2 years ago)
Nicole, I am so sorryto hear about Mia, I wish I knew a magic way to take the pain away. My prayers are with you. In time it will ease but she will always be with youin heart and memory. I am glad you have Polly as she will help you through this.
kevers (almost 2 years ago)
Nicole, I am deeply sorry to hear about your loss!!!!!!! I can't even imagine how you feel...like others, I have had dogs that have passed, but my "soul-pug" (great term) is still with me and I will be crushed when he goes. I am glad you turned to us and let us know what you are going through because maybe our posts will help...even if it is just a little.
We are all here for you, so keep posting if you feel you need to let emotions out. I am super happy, though, that you have Polly (love the name by the way) to keep you company and cheer you up. Mia will always be with you...and she is watching over you and Polly right now. 
RIP Mia.
Sofezmom (almost 2 years ago)
I'm so sorry, Nicole. Such a tragedy. Sending up prayers for you....
hyacynthe (almost 2 years ago)
thank you all so much for your support and kind words. it is hard to describe the heartbreak I've been going through. Kat, I am so sorry to hear about your little Sulynn, that is so devastating as well. I know that Mia is gone, but i still find myself shocked at the thought. The pain and loss I feel is tremendous. I don't know what I would do without my little Polly right now.....
michelleotis (almost 2 years ago)
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my baby Otis last Saturday (read my post right under yours). He too, came into my life when I thought it was about to end and I am devistated that he is gone. They are our babies, our precious ones. My husband and I were on vacation when it happened and I can't even describe the pain. Sending you hugs and know that we are all here for you.
elgor (almost 2 years ago)
I am so sorry for your loss! I always thought I was a "cat person" ... I lost my beloved cat, Bailey, in October of 2007! I didn't know how I could ever go on. Then, in March of 2008 my precious Princess Zoe LuvPug came into my life ... and since then we have added 3 more pugs. I will never, ever forget my precious Bailey, but OMG ... whenever the times comes that I lose one of these pugs I know a part of me will die with them. They are everything to me! I truely believe that they understand what I am saying to them - they have so much expression on their cute little faces. Thank God you have Polly ... she will help you get through this!!! Pug Hugs, Ellen
Mom2Pugs (almost 2 years ago)
Nicole and Polly, I am so sorry for your loss. I too have lost pets in the past, and I can not imagine losing one of my two pugs. There is just something about a pug, they are truly companion animals. When they look at us it seems that they know what we are saying. And Polly knows how you are feeling as she too lost a friend and family member. So, give eachother a big hug and know we are praying for comfort for you both. Marti, and my two pugs Desi and Bella
nicky927 (almost 2 years ago)
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
I know not much of anything will ease the pain right now, it just takes time. Just know that shes not suffering anymore and at peace. Try to remember the good times with her and maybe when you're feeling up to it, make a photobook, or scrap book of the good times. Also remember we're here for you.
rubyboobie (almost 2 years ago)
My heart goes out to you Nicole. I lost my 11 year old in March that devastated my husband and myself. He was our "child". We got our Ruby by chance not too long after losing Rusty. We felt very guilty to getting her so soon but honestly she saved us. We have such love for these little gifts that God gives us and know that when you are ready to have another "baby" it's okay. Please know you are not alone in your grief, I will pray for your healing.
Laurie222 (almost 2 years ago)
My thoughts & prayers are with you. It is never easy losing a pet, especially a pug! I lost my soul pug (LuLu) 2 years ago. THe day after mother's day. She was 14 & the best friend I will ever have. I have a daughter & 2 new pugs whom I love with all my heart & soul but there are times I do still miss my LuLu. Her picture is still everywhere. The pain does lessen & you will slowly feel better but your love will never die. I also know that LuLu is still with me - I believe she is the reason I got my Chloe.
Hang in there.
Shea (almost 2 years ago)
I am so sorry to hear about your baby. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
juliekake (almost 2 years ago)
Im so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious Mia. I have a "Soul" Pug in my Katie also. I lost another dog after 16 yrs & I know the pain you feel. Your pets become your children and your best friends. people say why do you grieve or a dog? Well you know what, sometimes that DOG is the best friend you have in the world. Why should we not grieve for them? You will never forget your best friend. I pray for you & please take comfort in knowing that Mia is no longer suffering. She is always in your heart. You have those precious memories with you everyday. Thoughts are with you.
predatorpug (almost 2 years ago)
I am soooo sorry to hear about your Mia!!!!! I lost my sweet bubby in Jan. I still dream of him and cry...he also was my soul pug!!! He also passed suddenly and from fluid on the lungs...please don't blame yourself. I go through the scenerio's everyday. If I could have done one thing different, but it doesn't bring him back. Try to think that she's not in pain, she can breathe free now...and hopefully all our passed babies are sleeping and playing together in heaven. All in all it's been a tough year. Alot of people here have lost there babies. Just know that we are grieving and surely crying with you and for you!!!~Vicki & Misaki
Gregg (about 1 year ago)
Nicole, I understand what you are going through.
I recently lost my Rosie (picture to the left) about
a month ago. She got ran over and unfortunately,
I witnessed it. I loved her so much. I had her spoiled
to the hilt. She was my sweet baby. We bonded the first day
that I met her. When she passed away, I never cried SO HARD in my entire
life as I did then. Thanks to the local pug rescue organization in the
area where I live, I was able to adopt a fawn Pug and she has helped
me heal through this difficult time. When the good Lord made my
Rosie, he literly threw away the blue print. There will NEVER be another Rosie.
I can be sure of one thing though. I will be able to cherish the fond
memories and the good times that my sweet baby and I had for
many years to come.
rumccormick (about 1 year ago)
I am so very sorry for your loss. We lost our beloved Betsy the 28th of December and I still cry everyday. I, like you, posted the loss and the Pugspot community posted unbelievably kind and supportive things. What an amazing group of people. I am So glad you have another pug with you to help you through this sad time. I will be thinking of you. Take care, Linda
Keith@Kathy (about 1 year ago)
Nicole, oh how sad. Last November, our precious Abby (5) in the space of 12 hours, went from being completely normal to almost completely paralyzed and we had to put her down. Our grief pretty much mirrored yours. Oh how our hearts ached and even now, those feelings of grief can arise very easily. I am sure that like Abby, your Mia was full of unconditional love for you. My wife and I believe in God and we understand that there is a lot of bad things that happen in this evil world but yet, we know that God loves His creation and especially these wonderful and loving animals that He uses to teach us about what real love is, it's giving and these Pug's give so much. I am confident that someday, I will be reunited with our Abby and find peace in that. Sharing your feelings today, Keith and Kathy
Frankie2009 (about 1 year ago)
oh no!!! I hate hearing stories like this! we all get what you are going threw, as we have all lost a Furkid..and totally understand you grief! it will get somewha better but the grief will always be there. There will be a time when you will remeber with more smiles than cries, just hug your other pug as Polly misses the other and wants to give you support and vice versa! Just know Mia is at the rainbow bridge...and not wanting you to be sad forever, and wants you to honor her, by taking care of Polly, and yourself. You have our love and support as we know it is not easy...and know about the sadness and grief you feel! take care of yourself and Polly, and let the grief happen for as long as you need it too.
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