On June 15th, I lost the most wonderful dog in the whole world... Her name was Angel, and to me and the rest of our family, she was an angel. I had 13 years with my baby and they were the best. My girl was in pretty good health for a senior pug except for a heart murmur that we discovered a few years ago. However, somewhere around June of 2011, we also discovered she had cancer. I was hoping and praying we would have a few more years with her, since she wasn't really sickly, had a good apetite and still liked to play. But I guess that was just not in god's plan for us. She started to get sick somewhere around March 2012 and started having seizures or feinting episodes. Her doctor wanted to put her through a bunch of tests but I didn't want to put her through something where she had to have anesthesia because I was afraid she wouldn't wake up. Then on June 7th, she feinted again and it took me longer to wake her up, which scared me big time. She was also just picking at her food. So the next day, off to the vet we went. Dr. said if she didn't start eating there was nothing they could do. We got some pills to increase her appetite, and she started eating the baby food, boiled chicken and rice.. then on June 13th she started slowing up again. And she was struggling hard to breathe... by Friday, June 15th, we knew the time had come to give our baby eternal rest. Oh did that break my heart. Her doctor said she was just trying to hold on for us. I miss my baby every single day. How do you get over one of the best things in your life? How does such a small dog have such a big presence in a household? How do you survive her birthday and Christmas? Its been almost 3 months, but I'm still sad. If a song comes on the radio that reminds me of her, I tear up.
However, I think my precious Angel has been trying to reassure me that she's ok. A couple weeks ago, on a rainy afternoon, hubby and I were on the way to visit my mother. Some song came on the radio that reminded me of her and I choked up. Then the sun came out and there was a rainbow. Right then I thought to myself, she's ok, she's at the Rainbow Bridge.
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Frankie2009 (9 months ago)
That's why they say "alot of Dog in a small package" when it comes to pugs. it just what they do. It is hard when you have to make that call. I did a few years back with my 26 year old Mutt. and the didn't feel like long enough. As for getting over it, you never truly will, but you will remmebr her with more smiles than cries, one day. They do have a way of letting us know they are at the bridge waiting for us, but are happy their playing just like puggies can! When Dusty passed it was raining all morning, then not soon after..it became a very bright day and plesant, I knew then she made it fine to the bridge just fine. It is never easy. We get it totally. Luckily I had my Frankie, who knew I was upset, and cuddled. Frankie was not a replacement for Dusty, but for me to honor her, I give Frankie the great life she had. Frankie was from the animal shelter, but I am glad that he got the chance to meet and play with Dusty. They are 2 special little dogs, and can never be replaced, but in order to honor them, I will always do things to help out animals in need as much as I can. Our thoughts and prayers are with you!
docand (9 months ago)
I'm so sorry. Boy, do we ever know how attached to our fur-babies we can get.... I still feel deeply about my Gretta that passed away, two years ago. Lexi has helped me out alot though.
Ushagrace (9 months ago)
Thank you for writing this piece even tho it was probably hard to do. I truly believe that she sent you a sign.Thinking of you, Usha
Patty25 (9 months ago)
Thank you all for your kind comments... This is the first time I could actually write something without becoming a blubbering mess... I'm taking it day-by-day but its just so hard to get used to my sweetheart Angel not being there.
SiennasMommy (9 months ago)
I really feel sad for you and have tears in my eyes as I answer to your post, knowing the pain you are feeling. There are no words that will comfort during this time as the hurt is so bad. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Carlos101 (9 months ago)
When reading the post, i teared up and started crying
, no joke. Then I imagined my life with out my Car-coo (Nick name for Carlos), How scary and sad that would be. @SiennasMommy , It's true they do take a piece of your heart with them when they go up into doggie, well, puggie heaven. But for me, that piece of my heart, would be 3/4ths of my heart, I would never be the same. Hope you are feeling better @Patty25 . Carlos and Me. Pugs and Kisses 
JanandSass (9 months ago)
Oh, it is so hard to read such sad stories! Our puggies and other fur babies become the centre of our lives, just like our own children. We love them, care for them and grieve for them when they leave us. God bless you for all your love and care that you gave to your beautiul Angel for all those years. We are grieving with you.
emma n ernies pugmom (9 months ago)
Patty25, I don't think we ever get over our Pug Babies...I am so sorry to hear about your loss, our Emma has been gone two months on Sat and I still cry everyday! She took a piece of my heart when she left.......all I can say is they know how much we loved them and they are still with us in spirit....hugs and love to you!!
KatB (9 months ago)
Patty, I understand how you are feeling. When I lost Sulynn my heart broke so bad. And there is not a day that goes by that I do not miss her or think of her. Her sister China Rose has been through alot in my pack of fur babies. First losing her sister pug, and friend Sulynn, and then a year later her pack leader Bonnie. She has now moved into being pack leader of the two Jap. Chins. I worried so much for her having to deal with so much, but it is working out. I on the other hand, still cry as you do. Things like words to songs, or even someone remembering her and saying her name, make it all come flooding back. I have never had such a hard time before. I have thought about getting another puggy for China and my heart, but the right one, just hasn't been found. Until that happens, the last heart ache won't heal. It just has to be right for China and me. Give yourself all the time you need. But do remember she isn't far from you. And I do believe they watch over us, and let us know they are still with us. Prayers coming your way.
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